This video was done by my friend (he’s literally playing the guitar above) for amusement, but I guess it relates to this post here.

If you happen to fall in love with this friend of mine, let me know; I think he is still single.

The lyrics is good, but I will still have the small talks anyway, hence I’m gonna “delete” some words.

“What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September (for my case, its Feb)

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I’ll have to say goodbye
And that’ll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz you’ll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I’ll have to say goodbye
And that’ll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start ”

I would also like to credit the song to David Choi, and I honestly never knew you existed, till my friend sang this song. Great song!

My relationship with my girlfriend ended just recently.

I have been saying that we were approaching a full 4 years together, and that she was my first ever girlfriend in my life.

This should be my post difficult post to write to this point.

What happened?

I won’t be able to articulate everything in detail; so it will be a summary and brief.

We broke up not because of betrayal or anything else, but because we were conflicting with issues and my goals in life.

My ex-girlfriend is a wonderful girl. I often said that of all the girls I have known in my life, I have not found any who is as loving as her.

When I was ill, my ex-girlfriend would come to my house to accompany me, to even try to take care of me. She also gave me many good gifts during our relationship, and I treasure every single one of them.

Many of the gift ideas that are written down in this blog were from her.

My ex-girlfriend is also very accomodating to me.

However, there were issues that were between us, because some people told her that I didn’t seem stable in my future and about my foothold in life.

I aren’t the guy who is just satisfied of getting a job in a company, get a wife, have kids, then grow old and die.

I want to live a life that I myself am convinced, that life is worth the living. I am not looking to be rich nor famous, but just satisfied, blessed, happy, and having impacted others to have the same experiences.

So there were goals in life that I chose to walk into that were difficult. One of the things I chose in the earlier part of my life was full-time ministry as a pastor, serving Christ and God.

I wanted God’s blessings to shine on my life; I just wanted people to be helped, and that everyone will be able to say to themselves, “I have lived a life that is worth living for!”

However, it wasn’t easy, as my ex-girlfriend found it difficult to come to terms with for the amount of risks I am taking. And when she compared me with other boyfriends, that seemingly is able to give their girlfriends financial security and stability in their career, she did not feel good within.

I never blamed her, and seeked to address the issues between us. This has been recurring for a long while.

However to cut the long story short, we ended the relationship because I rather her not be held up by me, and maybe she is able to find someone who is able to give her that kind of security and stability that she needs, while I look to seek security and a foothold in my life.

That way, she do not have to continue to be disappointed by me, and I myself do not have to be disappointed of myself when I do not meet her ideals.

What now?

Currently I’m not exactly seeking to be a full-time pastor or missionary. Circumstances have not allowed this route; futhermore, these goals have little to do with the satisfaction of life.

For now, I hope to make money online with blogs, by helping others and allowing them to understand that everyone can have the life that is worth living.

Or in other words, a ‘heaven on earth’ life.

Further details will be shared if I have made progress in my journey, and I will it known to you at a right time.

What did I realize after my experience?

In my previous post, “50 Things I wished I knew about guys, girls and relationships then“, I highlighted the fact that a love relationship isn’t about just love and feelings only, but many other factors must be taken into account to.

Of course, I do not deny that the foundation of all relationship is love and nothing else. There is no doubt about that.

It is just whether if the couple is able to brave through the storms of life with their love, that’s all.

There are two approaches that people generally take in regards to a love relationship and their goals in life.

Approach number 1:

A guy or a girl will find a life partner whom he or she loves respectively, and attempt to move their entire relationship towards the goal or vision that he/she has set for himself/herself.

What happens? Usually if both individuals have strong conflicting vision or goals, they are always tempted to change the other partner to suit their vision or goal to suit their needs, and both have to compromise for each other.

Changing anybody is an impossible task in any relationship, because it will end up in needless arguments and strife.

Approach number 2:

A guy or a girl will find a life partner that has similar vision and goals in life. Although they do not have to move their entire relationship towards the goal or vision, they do have a hard time finding someone with similar passions altogether.

What happens? If the guy or girl can’t find someone who has a similar vision or goal in life, he or she is more likely to feel lonely, and compromise to approach 1.

Conclusion

There is not the perfect approach to relationships. These things are volatile, and are subject to changes of circumstances and environment.

For example if a girl or a guy is approaching 40 years old and she/he is still single, more likely or not she/he will want to adopt approach 1 instead.

As for me, I guess I’m just ambitious, and not content with any ordinary life. Many children do not want to be like their parents, because secretly they do not see their parents as having a life that is worth living.

I do not want that to happen with me. So I will just continue to seek the experience of having a life that is worth living.

Perhaps once I am more or less sure about having a secure foothold in my life, my ex-girlfriend and I may come back together again? Or she may find herself settled with another person, and I myself too?

I won’t know and will not comment further.

Hence, I have removed my eBook and it will be unavailable for download any more. The weekly subscription for updates will still be on though.

What about you? What is the approach of your relationship in regards to your goals and vision in life?

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